The Balancing Act

With great difficulty I accomplished something which was elusive since long.  I was down and under because of the way it was elusive, I felt worthless, demotivated and had to drag my self to try one more time  each time I failed.   One quote particularly stuck with me and that was " I want to see what happens when I refuse to give up', so I kept at it repeatedly.  I was on the brink of depression, may be it was depression but I certainly do not want to use the word casually.  Also I realised that no one, no one understood what I was going through and even if I tried to explain I could not, somehow, bring out in words the intensity of how I was poised to just break up into pieces. Well, now finally when I met with my goal, I was overwhelmed and elated. Ready to start, roll up my sleeves and prove my self and suddenly something out of the blue like a thunderbolt struck me and showed me that I did not have to go through all this turmoil ever if I had communicated openly and on ti

When rejection hounds you It slays a knife right through the midriff, ripping it into two agonizingly dripping bright droplets of dead blood it makes your own hands reach for your gaping face push into into the abysmal haze putting a black sheet over your eyes thankfully obliterating the cursed silhouette then when you suddenly turn around grappling its long tentacles scratching on its seething apathy throwing your head back giving a hard push to your psyche inhaling fresh feelings faith and hope flailing arms slowly simmer heating up cold heart to warm up some color sparking a bright new naivety to try once again just once again!