'What happens when we refuse to give up'!!

With great difficulty I accomplished something which was elusive since long.  I was down and under because of the way it was elusive, I felt worthless, demotivated and had to drag my self to try one more time  each time I failed.  

One quote particularly stuck with me and that was " I want to see what happens when I refuse to give up', so I kept at it repeatedly.  I was on the brink of depression, may be it was depression but I certainly do not want to use the word casually.  Also I realised that no one, no one understood what I was going through and even if I tried to explain I could not, somehow, bring out in words the intensity of how I was poised to just break up into pieces.

Well, now finally when I met with my goal, I was overwhelmed and elated. Ready to start, roll up my sleeves and prove my self and suddenly something out of the blue like a thunderbolt struck me and showed me that I did not have to go through all this turmoil ever if I had communicated openly and on time.

 I realised that except for me every one saw what was written on the wall. I missed it big time, I had always considered myself to be good judge of human beings, working in HR for the last two decades. I was mistaken, I just missed the point, but I am glad it was about me and my wrong judgement did not effect any one else or cause any harm to them.

Now I am left with a sort of numbness, instead of rejoicing the realisation and recognition I got,  I was upset that I could not go the way I wanted to go and start doing my bit.

When we think that we know our life and how it is going to shape up, suddenly God  throws a curve ball, aiming perfectly, bringing  us on our  knees and showing us  who is the boss out there !!