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I , the social media and the imposter syndrome - a long rant ahead - beware !!

Where am I supposed to get those words and sentences from. The ones which they  dole out so perfectly and it hits the right chord with everyone. Every single day I am pulled deeper and deeper into this endless abyss of thinking that I am worthless , that I have no talent, that i can not write anything which resonates with anyone, leave alone striking a chord. Social media says it is called the 'Imposter syndrome', and I think I am neck deep in it. Nothing and nobody can convince me about my confidence , my knowledge or my capabilities. Sometimes when I go back to re read my posts here I feel that it is written by some one else, i see the comments and I feel vow! that was great and then what happened?? All I can manage to do nowadays apart from doing my job which consumes 8 hours plus another 4 hours of commute to-and-fro every single day is just scroll mindlessly. I just get engrossed in other peoples stories, their immense talent an success. Quite a few of them makes me stop i...

Traversing life

 Traversing through life's rain soaked plains sometimes loosing balance on hilly terrains laughing heartily through blissful bends sometimes living on tear soaked vents Rummaging  through  shattered  dreams sometimes picking up its sturdy pieces calling  friends through dreary , dark nights sometimes realizing they were just shadows not  lights Longing through lonely lanes bracing wounds from shards of  life's window panes Looking inwards through life's learnings sometimes failing sometimes winning

Happy New Year 2026!

Happy New Year every one!  So this time I am a tad bit late for the customary New year post.   Well, since 2020 life has been on  a roller coaster and for 2025 I only have gratitude, as this year saved me from breaking into pieces. I literally saw miracles in my life and absolutely agree that spirituality can turn around life situations. Good bye to 2025, thanks for all the blessings and all the lessons. A huge welcome to 2026 , no resolutions this year. Only thing I know is that I have surrendered my self unto his lotus feet. Will come back here by the end of the year and will update you on how was the journey.  Let me tell you I have a feeling that this is the best year ever! I am manifesting it with divine blessings.   Till then Happy New year to each one of you.  Have a blessed and peaceful 2026!

The much needed closure - After 30 years!

 Once upon a time I had posted here on my blog about my best friend with whom I had such love and deep connection and then things went really bad due to a mistake on my part and we never spoke thereafter, for years together. It was not I who ended it and I was extremely sad about it and kept trying to locate her and find out her contact to apologise and gain back her friendship. I never stopped trying and then around 2010 I somehow got her email id and phone number and I wrote to her and called her. She took the call but was silent on the other side. She never replied to my email. I never gave, up I kept trying. You wont believe, yesterday on August 21st after 30 years I talked to her. This was after constant chasing, infact it felt to me as i was stalking her, i kept my ego and shame aside. This time the replies she gave to me baffled me because it was as if she did not remember what had happened , in fact she said that she was looking for me for the last 4 to 5 years....

Happy New Year 2025!

Happy New Year 2025 :) Before I welcome the New year, one word for the year I am sitting in.. its a year like never before. Just when I thought that I had seen it all, Came 2024 and just cut me to size! Well what to say 2024, I have no words, I cant and I dont want to even start about what you did to me. Anyways I am happy that I will not see you again, my only parting wish is please dont cast your shadow on the coming year, please go for good, period! I do not know if any one visits this blog any more, even I seldom come here. Every one who started blogging along with me are either novelists or some super achiever or the other, here I am sitting in this place Blogosphere all alone and looking around to the barren land.  Literally this place has fallen prey to the Instagrams, vlogs, youtubes and what not! its sad but it is the reality. Who wants to write it when you can just show it isnt it? Well.. to my non existent readers and my self wishing you a very Happy and fabulous New yea...

Line__________

 Lines that run deep on the  palms crisscrossing and running into mazes are you not in sync with the universe, the manifestations, the affirmations Stars that shine bright on night sky planets that bring fortunes and heights bringing light  and lies Lines that run deep on the  palms should you be read  or the lines on the  brow  the crevices on the  heart the wounds  married to salt are you not in sync with life's pages springing up deep gorges and valleys black clouds and thunderstorms Lines that run deep on the  palms !

my little cottage

The little cottage nestled on the foot of rolling hills green patch with white picket fencings adorning the cozy nook with lacy frills colorful sidewalks spattered with  white and pink daisies quaint table with four cane chairs under the  tree laden with oranges blooming fragrant blossoms drowning all the  cares amidst the calming silhouette of hills looming living the life of dreams every day... In the little cottage nestled on foot of rolling hills misty fog flowing on  beautiful mornings with books to read and songs to sing long lazy days with crochet cardigans to knit little fireplace and warm rugs to sit a lovely lantern hanging above the blue  door   entwined with  beaming bougainvillea  vine amidst dreamy nights oozing stardust shine...