To my heart's mirror image - with love

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More than two decades back , I was you
Even now I have some little of you left in me
I had the same need for hugs and kisses
The same insecurity , the same urge to impress my mother
The same love hate relationship with my sister
But I am so glad that you are so much better than me
You love your sister and express it often
More than I ever did to mine
You can hug and kiss and let your emotions show
That is so much of what I always wanted to do
I am so sorry if I am not the mother you want me to be
I am so sorry for not being able to be with you always
When you need me badly for a hug or just to be there
Your birthday just went by
But you were such a sweet baby
You did not make a hue and cry for party or friends
You Just let it go with much ado
Happy with a dress and a chocolate cake
So unlike children of your age
I love you so much and I feel for you so much
You innocence and your love
Let it take you along and make you the most lovable person
And remember , I love you more than I can ever tell
And more than you will ever know
Happy tenth birthday my sweet heart – my first born, my darling daughter

Comments

  1. sangeetaFebruary 1, 2012 at 10:51 PM

    Convey my heartiest wishes to the sweetheart SS.
    You are such a lovely mommy. Keeping the child alive in your heart always is a pleasure. Isn't it?

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  2. Devasena HariharanFebruary 6, 2012 at 1:57 AM

    thanks Rekha! Its a while since I blogged. I was completely busy.

    Its a coincidence, Last year, I read a poem of urs about ur daughter, again today I'm reading this..lovely..

    hectic nowadays,..will catch u soon.

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  3. lanFebruary 17, 2012 at 9:56 PM

    these heartfelt words show the agony and ecstasy of parenting so well! belated wishes to your daughter. and yes when there is two you are always walking the tightrope of impartial love:-)

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  4. soulsearchingdaysFebruary 20, 2012 at 8:43 PM

    lan, thanks, yes sometimes it is so difficult to justify your being away from the child even if it is due to absolutely unavoidable reasons..

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